That very last scene, the endings

That evening, the sun I know, will set little early
The breaths are less, I guess few seconds are left;
I loved god, because someone was with me
Today I hate him, because he will break her heart

The strongest one, I met few years back,
The pillar which rose me up;
I know is silent in these seconds too
I know, was proud that I was high

Hah, God came,said “nine seconds left lad”
Just nine seconds to recall the last nine months
Donno, which month to recall first; Didn’t had that much time you see
So I recalled the last month first; The day I died. Ah! actually killed myself

Last came the month we met, unknowingly, silent
But the sweetest dream of me
You know what, I saved a whole second by then
My love knew it’s the last second of me…

This second, last when I’ll see her face
The second that will shatter all her beliefs
That “Love lasts forever, that it never dies ”
Time takes it all away, now who will teach her this after me ??

Its hard for me to smile now, harder for her to be quiet
I know for the first time she is filled with hatred
The god, the luck, or the hope;
She called it for long

Wall, that will be mended, forever between her world and my world
The world we shared, is not mine now;
What will she do of it, even she donno, nor do I
In one life, we cared of world, the world that neither of us belonged to

I am not sad because I am dying, everyone dies one day
I am sad because I killed her;
Out of hope, out of god, out of luck and out of love
I hate myself because I left first, I died first