Time is God

शाम , ज़िन्दगी का वो ठहराव ;
                                    या अंत की शुरुआत
शाम , उन  यादों का ख़त्म होना ;
                                    या उसी गम मे खुद का ख़त्म हो जाना
शाम , कल  की सुबह का इंतज़ार ;
                                    या आज के अंत का गम

क्या ये फिर वही शाम , जो कल भी आई थी ?
या वो शाम,जो फिर नही आएगी ...

Crux:
At times in life when we don't know we are right or not.
Life seems stuck, at a stand still in between of the past and the future.
The question arises, will there be joy and 'life' in the fast approaching future.

Wild guesses, I can make, sitting at the juncture, at the very same shaam of life

Dew drops on my eye lashes

फीकी वजह , धुधली सी पुरानी  यादें ।सिमटी ख्वाइशे और पिघलते सपने
हाँ , वजह, शायद वो एक वजह ;
कहीं किसी कोने में , दबी ही सही, पर साँस ज़रूर लेती है ।

Old reasons, dull thoughts, may be all too hazy to be felt,
the wishes,bundled up, now a rustic pile
But yes, reasons, or may be just one of them left
Left in self-created shackles of my heart, all tied
but still do breathe, do live, The One reason lives.

Shiny Darkness

Lonely roads are lovely

For sure they are,

But its the loveliness that fill up the heart

The love of just loving yourself

The smile that is just meant for your soul

Lonely moon, up there in my sky,

I know appears sad, no stars to befriend

But down there, in his heart, why I feel today

This is what he was destined to

The love in being lonely is what drives him tonight

The moon clocks the same pace,

Either with his stars or hanging up there alone.

Why do I need others to match the pace,

Why do I feel defeated being alone

So its not loneliness that kills us, everyone

Its the hearts way to feel he is alone

Its not being alone that is killing me,

Its the fear of being alone that sucks

Please my loneliness, falling in love with me, Again. 

Make me a part of your joy, show me your smiling self,

I too want to smile with you, want to stare in your eyes…

For IIM R…

What a life, a joy indeed

IIM it is, result of some nice deed

Where the life rocks, fun unplugging

No longer sitting dully and code debugging

Jokes apart, the roads are long

Life is a fun, but challenges prolong

Its not how you reach yr goals, milestones you embrace

All it matters is, what new ones u choose, and how you face

I've smelt the sweet, and bitter truths of life

I've tasted victories and failures all along those paths,

But now, I see a shining star, near the horizons

I feel the warm blood, pumping in my veins

The few things learnt, I'll do bring 'em in, a deal

"Life is a race" fr sure, but each of us running his own, I feel

IIM Rohtak, a head start from the rest, the crowd

We are here to learn, give our best, and make all proud

Numbness

I've stopped listening to my cuckoo bird,

the one that's there, from the day I fell in love

love: with life, its joys, its smiles and its sorrows of course

The cuckoo bird still comes, at times

sitting on the parched, deserted tree, the tree whole roots boasted life, once

The tree was green back then,

the bird's voice had the canny softness

My dreams were my life once,

My life, a dream worth living forever

For sure, I said, many a times, love is there in people's heart

For sure, I said, I'll find one, one day

Love; hah, They proved me wrong

Forget even life, found just bodies draped in gold

Who can teach 'em, gold needn't be lovely

lovely diamonds well nigh will be proved stones, in the end

The charm subdued in that missed morning rose

The charm that they just concealed,

or may be just never saw at all

Heart- Thread of life

There is not a single heart,
that misses no one,
and it beats, just to say
Hey you'll be remembered here, inside me, forever

You might be not there,
but these beats tonight,
the one I am holding in my chest
are a proof that yes you are held too close

Close enough that when the d-day will come
the last dawn of my life
when these breaths will have to stop, gasps may be harder
when eyes will blink for the last few moments

I'll pass on those same vibes
one I held too close to me
To someone subtle enough to care it
One who'll pass on to the other...

Then I'll fully complete the whole circle of life or at least my small part in this big circle of life, which keeps on moving as if forever. At least my small part

Martyr

Bang, and yes my Sepoy is down
my own blood, wasn't he ?
I cried a lot, haven't I ?
Me to be proud, or feel hurt, but fr sure,
he proved, he loved me back

Bang, few moments before the fatal bullet,
machine guns, roaring loud
artillery, filling the dusky cloud
And only once, the thought of her
went across in a wink, before he was dead

Bang, he saw his past,the moments that briskly ran away
Feet of his mother, yes he still feels the last touch, sigh
Those rosy cheeks of his daughter Miya, moist in the tears of 'bbye'
Eyes of a wife, no single blink, bidding adieu with a numb stare
Wanting to stop the time in that moment forever, she can't

Bang, and yes my Sepoy was down
died for whom ? Yes, my own people
Just to pass on few words
"I gave my everything for you";
"Please love my land, the way I do"